College and other ordinary things

I'm an adult.

Wow. That feels weird. I've spent my entire life being a kid and waiting to be an adult, and now I'm in college (granted I do still live at home), I have a job, and I have a cat that I have to take care of. It's a big step for me.

College isn't all that I thought it would be though. The same people are still there. You know, those ones that follow you all your life, that you can NEVER get away from? There's always the pretty girl who knows that she's pretty and won't talk to anybody but her commrades and her boyfriend, there's the awkward guy that talks to himself and creeps everyone out with his shifty eyes, the kids that never show up, and when they do, it's just to make lots of unecessary noise, and the loners who try to look all tough, and then there's me. I sit, unnoticed, in the middle of the class.

From the middle you can see everything, but no one sees you. They look over you to make fun of the "geeks" in the first row or past you to the "troublemakers" in the far back. In the middle, you're comfortable, but not overly so. I wonder if that's how it feels for the people who just settle with their lives?

They just stop and remain content instead of taking the leap to be truly happy. I hope I'm not one of those people. I hope I don't turn into one. Because happiness is really all that I want out of my life. Honestly. I want to be so happy that I can't stand it. And everything else can just fade into the background.