College and other ordinary things

The kids will crank up the volume to the Pokemon theme song and belt out every word, buy useless things, and eat junk food. They will sing along with Disney songs, and actually get along for once. They will also prepare for the impending doom that is the snow storm that's headed our way.

That's right, I said snow storm. The weather people are calling for 6-10 inches of snow tonight and tomorrow. I could die of happiness. I just want to be able to go sledding. Real bad. And have a snowball fight. And build a snowman. Because there's nothing happier than that. :)

Your happiest memories from childhood are usually ones of playing in the snow, becuase when you're a child, there's nothing more magical than the wet, white wonderland that a snowfall creates. Well, excep Santa Claus and the Tooth fairy. They are BOTH more magical than snow. haha

I hate the morning.

It's the one time of day that I'm unbelievably sleepy, my eyes hurt, I trip over everything, I'm hungry, AND I have to pee. All at the same time.

Plus, morning always pulls me out of some of the best dreams...

This morning is worse than usual because today I had to get up at 6:30 even though my classes don't start till 11. Because I have to take my brother to school. Then I get to come home, nap for 45 minutes, and then leave for school. It sucks. But oh well.

This week, my role is that of "responsible parent" not "whiny older sister". Ballz.

I'm an adult.

Wow. That feels weird. I've spent my entire life being a kid and waiting to be an adult, and now I'm in college (granted I do still live at home), I have a job, and I have a cat that I have to take care of. It's a big step for me.

College isn't all that I thought it would be though. The same people are still there. You know, those ones that follow you all your life, that you can NEVER get away from? There's always the pretty girl who knows that she's pretty and won't talk to anybody but her commrades and her boyfriend, there's the awkward guy that talks to himself and creeps everyone out with his shifty eyes, the kids that never show up, and when they do, it's just to make lots of unecessary noise, and the loners who try to look all tough, and then there's me. I sit, unnoticed, in the middle of the class.

From the middle you can see everything, but no one sees you. They look over you to make fun of the "geeks" in the first row or past you to the "troublemakers" in the far back. In the middle, you're comfortable, but not overly so. I wonder if that's how it feels for the people who just settle with their lives?

They just stop and remain content instead of taking the leap to be truly happy. I hope I'm not one of those people. I hope I don't turn into one. Because happiness is really all that I want out of my life. Honestly. I want to be so happy that I can't stand it. And everything else can just fade into the background.